When you dim out ur lights...

No one told me it was easy,some say it go round and round like the ferris wheel,
but at least,ferris wheel looks nice.i didnt came up,or grew up being nasty,rebellious,
or any top people everyone knows..but im laid low,not a glance in everyone eyes.
i know deep down,these is not what i should be,i am those with big laughs,and used to make everyone smile,..i felt great,..its all back then.huge doors open to new world,yea..this new school.
i was effortly trained not to do that.mom says so. but i still want me,to be out there again.
but infact.i cant.ive got these huge mirror blocking my view reflecting myself..it hurts like
glass pierced through your heart,when it bleed,it doesnt stop..and just like books,it hadnt ended,
but its just chapter one. i twitch my eyes,hearing voices,i tought it was a dream,i flunged myself
off the concrete cold floor i was lying,there i saw,them quarelling,..her eyes filled with heartbroken tears,inhaling small breaths every time she sobbed,strands of hair sticked on to her
face..looking at me with her piercing sad eyes,"what is this family gonna be?"she answered me..
i have to face these situations every now and then..i couldnt barely tell her how i felt,..cause if
theres life and death,i would rather stood up for her,cos shed taken care of me since im little hag.
i was actually the one suffering most out of this all,but they wouldnt see..i guess its not cleared yet..i guess thier eyes are blurred cloudy.while my eyes are blood shot red..confused,and cramped up..in this life story im telling,ima real kid,but then in this real life,i had to take parents place as well..its hundreths time the coldness of antartica..inhaling cold air,that left my throat
piercing dried,like torns out of roses stalk..pity this heart of mine,for this cause,my heart turned cold,i abandoned my feelings and my love life.
and therefore,not letting anyone in,till this chapter,leads to a happy ending~



youre reading part of torn pages from el's diary..
its only

chapter 1.

Name:elly
D.o.b:10/12/1992
age:18
passion:futebol
work:Mizuno sports house&
World of sports




-The other side of me-

Wa idol

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